Another CA I must prepare hard for, another test of my academic will
I have to go sonic again in just one week or day, but life stands still
Distractions abound, scary, sad, happy, big and small
I mean I'm still just a human, not a robot, after all
I have to use Anxiety to fuel my focus tight
Three hours of sleep, a restless, relentless, regretful but hopeful night
Please, God, don't let me doze off as I write my papers tomorrow, somehow
I remember painfully how the lecturers kept saying the best time was now.
Unexpected questions I was not ready for throwing me off guard
What should I do? I'll just have to write from the heart
I won't give up, never, I'll give it my all
Pray and keep praying as I leave the hall
No time to dwell on what went wrong, I have to be strong
Just an hour's cry, five more for my lost sleep and I move along
Next day, new distractions, new guilt of how I haven't started preparing for the next, new backlog
Lot's of fresh physical and mental stress start
The cycle repeats, I still won't begin, I'd do other things, I'll watch a film, I'll even volunteer, playing a new part
Just time management is all I need but don’t have, it breaks my heart
Well, there's always another level, a fresh start
I'll do better then, I'll have real comebacks and my academics will be like a work of art
Who am I kidding? That's what I said last year, when I had even more buffers.
Everything just keeps getting tougher, the levels get tougher, the CAs get tougher and I'm sure MBs get tougher.
My poor mind.
It's a never-ending grind.
Ololade Ojeniyi
